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Just can't wait!!

2009-01-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

In 2 hours time, Dawood will be back in Singapore !!!
YAHOOO!!!!
I know he went like yesterday but I still miss him badly!
I meet him every single day...
and not meeting him a day makes me feel different & awkward!!!
STRANGE isn't it??
How a person can change u...
Later I'm going to fetch him and hug him and kiss him...
Only god knows how much i miss him...
To all u blog readers!!!

just wanna say....

I LOVE DAWOOD!!!

a life with a boyfriend

2009-01-12T12:38:00.002+08:00

Have any of you guys actually feel really lonely even though u have a boyfriend with u??
Well, I do... I have a boyfriend and I've been with my boyfriend for like 1 year now but it seems that we are drifting apart. We are busy with our own work and only meet up to have dinner or maybe supper. If your luck is good, maybe watch movie or rent DVD. I'm not complaining that we don't spend much time together but it's just that you are not noticing that I'm lonely. For your friends and your work mates, you're willing to do just about anything. Have a drink at town everyday. Help to supervise the house while he is away. What about me? I need my fair share of time and fun with you. I'll do anything to have a day to be with you but you won't eveb try to do it for me unless your friends are here. I don't blame you when your friends are here but you just did everything for them. I cry almost every night knowing I'm not important and don't say I'm important to u because if I am, why aren't you doing anything???
Think about it Dawood...

someone new but old

2009-01-10T12:41:00.003+08:00

This happens to me a few days ago...

For a very long time i have not updated my blog nor chek up on my blog and suddenly one day i got the urged to check on my blog and started blogging. That's when i read my tag board and i saw someone by the name of "gnirek" tag me twice asking for help in his life. I was stress out trying to figure out who it was till a very fine day it hit me... It was someone i knew for a very long time but we had a fight a few months back and didn't keep in contact anymore.

I decided to give him a call on his mobile and surprised him and he was happy to hear from me again. His life was going down hill and needed someone to talked to badly. I pity him. I from that day found my life in a better state! Talked to him for a couple of hours. Talking about what we've missed, what we used to have and jus talking about all the memories we made. He apologised to me for the fight we're in.

Fortunately, we are now still in contact with each other as good friends. We are not the same as we used to but we are still there for each other. I treasure my friendship with him as he had been there for me through my ups and downs. It's a pity that lots of his so called friends abused his friendship and missed used his sincere love.

To him, let's have a wonderful friendship and continue to do silly things together.

Happy New Year

2009-01-03T17:16:00.003+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all.....

Secondly, my BTT is nearing and I need to like take practice before I take my BTT as i dont wanna fail...
someone forces me to take my practice!!!!!

Thirdly, I had a blast even wen im sick!!!
Thanks to Dawood Anuar , Justin & Sinead!!!!
and hope u guys have a safe flight back home!!!!!
gonna miss u guys badly!!!!!

Planning...???

2008-11-24T14:35:00.002+08:00

ZOUKOUT is coming to Singapore this 13 December!!!

wee~~

I really hope, i'm not working on the 14th and also the 13th..

Ireally wanna go and enjoy myself sey!!

sommore with my beloved Dawood!!!

aarrrggh!!

and guess wad people,
yesterday Dawood mum invite me to Dawood grandma's 74th Birthday celebration at Pan Pacific Hotel on the 29th!!!

saper tak nak pegi kan...gerek per!!!

Birthday celebration at a Hotel!!!!!!

i WANNA GO!!!!

im now finding people to swap duties with me!!!

please help me!!!!!

GOD, I hope they let me!!!!!

btw im super duper tired and sleepy!!

hahaha!!

i know its 3 in the afternoon!!!

and yesterday Dawood gave me a Jean Paul Gaultier perfume!!!!

his mum give it to him and says she give it to me!!

wah!!!!

so fun!!!

heheh!!

tomorrow will be working and so wait for the latest updates!!!

cya!

and love u, guys!

are we together ??

2008-11-21T10:47:00.002+08:00

We been fighting alot..
calling names..
being sarcastic...
shouting and basiclly fucking each other up!!!

so my question is, are we in love? or just going with time..
waiting for the right time to let go??

i'm a gerl...
my feelings are way more fragile then yours!
and i hate it when u start with ur sarcasticness and pushed me over the limit!!
u know i love u....
but u will never give in and u are never the same guy i used to know!

its gonna be alright!

2008-11-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

today was both my aunt & uncle wedding...
they are actually siblings, so ya..
and the escort was like massive sey!
i think there's like more then 50 bikes!!
both big & small....
its was a fun day spend with my familyy at the wedding!

Now, im at the Premier Pitch with Dawood...
Dawood playing soccer with a group of guys that he usually plays soccer with!
i was here since like 7pm...
and we had our "talk"...
i tell him how i really feel and how we could improve our relationship!
and Dawood make me smile...
he says,he promise me he will pioritise me more!
Dawood is really a nice guy!
i really miss him eventhough he is here with me!
all the bad things i did to him in the past, I'm sorry...
i will never let go what i have with Dawood for anything in the world!
and that goes the same with Dawood..
he loves me and he will never leave me!
mayb we are meant to b 2gether???
or mayb , we jus lucky to find our soulmate at a young age!

in my heart right now,
Dawood is my man....
I love him to bits!

Im hating it now...

2008-11-07T18:53:00.002+08:00

hello..
im at the pitch now...
Dawood doing his coaching now...
and right now, im hating it!!!

I fucking dont work here...
so i didnt know anything!!
but no, i always got blamed for that!!!
i hate it!!!
i really do!!!

i jus wanna cry right now!!
Dawood is so UNREASONABLE!!!
who the freaking hell he think he is...
its his job!!
atleast i tried!!

well, whatever!!
im a BIMBO in his eyes!!
im not capable of doing a bloody single things!!!
so ya!
thanks Dawood for the help and showing me how u used the FUCKING CREDIT CARD MACHINE!!!!!!

HELO!!!

2008-10-29T20:48:00.001+08:00

hey people, im sorry that ive not been updating my blog!! im too busy werking now!!! and yup, mira has finally grow up n werk!!hahaha!! well, 2day, 2morrow and the next day is my days off!! wad a long off!!hehehe!!as per usual...and u guys shud c my november roster!! lagik slack!hahaha!! well, now im BORED!! that y i decided to blog if not i b 2 busy werking or im outside!

btw Dee's getting married and Congratulations to her n her future husband!!! c u at ur wedding!!
and i miss all my batchmates!!!!!

keep updating!!

2008-09-25T22:04:00.001+08:00

hey people!!!
i know i didnt update for quite some time!!!
well,im busy having training...
wooo!!!wooo!!

makes lots & lots & lots of frenz....
and they are all funny people!!
hehehe!!!

i took lots of pictures and will be posting it soon!
now still lazy n very exhausted!!!!
hehee!!

training was super fun!!!!
i pass my SEP test and now i can FLY!!!
yahoo!!!
gerek per people!!!

ive not seen Dawood for some time now...
i really miss him alot
and he dnt realised it!
haiz...
people say im a gd gf but
till wen i can tahan??????
its all up 2 god now!

but well, me and Dawood are fine...

tomorrow FAM FLIGHT

2008-09-11T21:09:00.001+08:00

yeah!!!
tomorrow....
im going SAIGON!!!
YAHOOOO!!!!!!
well, half of the class going Saigon and the other half is to Phuket...
gerek per.....
n we gonna observe the real thing!!!
its gonna be fun!
so me, ibrahim and fizah decided to sahur together at Han's restaurant!!
hahaha!!
our very first...
hahaa!!!

updating!

2008-09-05T20:40:00.002+08:00

Honestly,rite now i have a mixed feelings....
both scared and excited!!!!
coz im gonna start my Tiger's Airways Training soon...
weet!! weet!!
hehhehee!!!!

btw me & dawood are totally fine
we are happy and blessed!
but soon he is going dubai....
haiz!!
he is going for 2 whole weeks!
tell me how am i suppose to live??
arrggghhhh!!!
but overall we are happy and healthy and blessed!!
wee~

hari raya is like next month!
to all my friends and family members...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!!!

to Dee...
congrats on ur wedding..
orang tu nak kahwin sey...
wee!~~
take care and IMY!!!!

we r back!

2008-08-29T12:44:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
Fasting Month is jus like next week!!
ARRGGGGHHH!!
fasting...fasting!!!
hehhee!!
da giler agaknye!

well, i hav great news..
I LOVE DAWOOD!!!
i always love him...
he is my other half...
Actually yesterday morning at 2am
he called 2 have supper!
its been like 1 week since i last saw him!
i miss him so badly tat i wake up n jus wash my face 2 mit him!
we had mac's at downtown!
like old times....
i miss all that wid him!

7 THINGS I LOVE ABOUT him!!

his BACIN smell
his smile
his silly dance moves
his eyes
his kisses
his crazy jokes
his everything!!!

precious

2008-08-26T19:09:00.002+08:00

i just finish reading what my cousin wrote in her blog. It makes me realised that our lives and our loved ones' lives are really precious. And that if we are not in good terms with out family , best friends or our other half just gathered all your courage and apologised. Saying sorry to someone sincerely will end all troubles between u. You will never know whether you will missed the person until he/she is no longer in your life. God create this world that we live in and he has the power to take it away. Dont take our loved ones for granted. NEVER take them for granted. Coz i know how it feels to not have that special someone in my life.

(4)

2008-08-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!!!
here are some of the pictures me and Dawood took and Tioman...
i hope you guys are enjoying the pictures!!
Its really a very fun and last minute trip!!!
HONEST!!!
so guys, enjoy and take care!!!

(3)

2008-08-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

(2)

2008-08-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

Our Tioman Trip !!!! (1)

2008-08-17T23:14:00.003+08:00

Our FIRST ever trip and it is to...TIOMAN!!!
wee~
we had lots and lots and lots of fun!!!
and everything there is so relaxing that you totally forget about time.
Me and Dawood actually get to spend quality time together without the hassle n bussle of a city life!!!
The beers are super duper cheap!
the Food is cooked to Perfection!
the sunset was BEAUTIFUL!
the people are super nice and friendly!
we decided that we should go back to Tioman again soon!!
we cant wait!!
everything there is super beautiful and nice!
and i cant get enough of it!
im SERIOUS!!!!

now,im missing Tioman!!!

our first vacation

2008-08-10T23:53:00.001+08:00

Hey people, tomorrow is my TRIP TO TIOMAN!!!!
i cant sleep!
i'm so excited...
aaarrrrggggghhhhh!!!!!!!
it's gona be lots of fun under the sun!!!
wee!~!~

so i will be waking up at 4.30am in the morning...
meeting Dawood at 5.20am at Pasir Ris MRT!!!
so i can't be late!!!
so pagi..
I KNOW!!
hahaha!!

super duper excited la..
everything is all done n now jus waiting to sleep!!
hehehe!!
but i cant sleep....
its gonna be our first ever vacation!!
yahoo!!!
c u guys soon...

today, 2morrow and the next day

2008-08-08T11:59:00.003+08:00

3 MORE DAYS TO TIOMAN TRIP!!!

wee~

hehehe!!!

im SUPER DUPER excited la!

tonight

080808

got company dinner

at ...

TAMBUAH MAS!!!

cool per!

at TANGLIN S.C.

tomorrow

090808

NATIONAL DAY!!

my GRAND DADDY birthday!!!

wee!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATOK!

going to ELIAS PARK FC BBQ!!

gerek per...

hahaa!

and everything wid

DAWOOD ANUAR!!

shiok aper!

hehehe!!

bored at werk...

2008-08-06T09:25:00.002+08:00

hey guys,

im at work now..

hehehe!!

and im alone in my office...

Jeff (boss) & Ivan (senior engineer) havent reach yet!!

so yeah im bored!!!

today chee peng hav to follow azam (driver) to do collection...

haiz...

lagi bored!!!

hahahaha!!!

now i got nothing to do....

seriously...im jus surfing the net!!!

hehehe!!!

GEREK PER!!

btw GUESS WAD??!!!

ME & DAWOOD GOING TIOMAN!!

3DAYS / 2NIGHTS

WOOO.....

YAHOO!!!

ENJOY!!

TANNING UNDER THE SUN...

HEHEHE!!!

so guys, will updat the pictures and everything else!!!

hehehe!!

holidays!!!

2008-08-03T00:31:00.001+08:00

im planning a trip to Tioman wid Dawood tis 18-20 August!!!
yeah!
i hope jadi ahh...
i need a holiday sey!!!
hehehe!!!

seriously!!!

updates people!

2008-07-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!
to cousins, friends & other love ones...

Im terribly sorry for the NO updates!!
hehehe!
I am TOTALLY busy with work!
yupz...
work..work..work..work..
penat sey!
well, a woman gotta do wad a woman gotta do!
haha!

work is fine!
and GUESS WAD??!!!
i got selected to....
TIGER AIRWAYS TRAINING !!!
yeah me!!
haha!
its TRUE!!!

BUT I DUNNO!!!
haiz...
god help me!

btw now i am wid
my one and only
MR DAWOOD!!
we are at the PITCH!!
hehe!yup, till 1am sey..
TIRED!!!
arrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, DAWOOD!!
muacks..

COOKIES

2008-07-14T11:30:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,
LATEST UPDATE!!!!!
yeah..
hehhee!!
well, the picture above is the cookie
me , Fareaha & Ihsan make yesterday!!!
SEDAP GILER AHH!!!!
hahahah!!and we make it from scratch!!!
cool aper!
biase jugak.
tengok saper yang buat kan...
hahaahhaha!!!!
mira as per usaul LAME!!!

BTW!!!!
yesterday went to Dawood's match at
MERIDIEN JC!!!!
at 5pm...
they played against Hongkah!
and nearly ada gaduh sey!
hehhee!
ehk, da kalah sudah ahh!!!
LOSER!!!!
SORE LOSER!!!!
hahahha!!!!

well, that for now...
me waiting for Dawood's call...
bye!!!

I LOVE U, DAWOOD!!!

tiger airways interview

2008-07-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

Oh my GOD!!!
i dunno wad i should wear....
im stuck!!!
today is my interview with
TIGER AIRWAYS...
oh gosh...
nervous breakdown now!!
hahaha!!
i seriously dunno wat i should wear!!
and dawood is like..
"Anything u wear looks great"
thanks alot for ur non-help!
hahah!
im jus joking sayang!
in 4hrs i wil hav my interview..
shit!
shit!
shit!!

ARGGHH!!!
god ...help me!
i hope i get the job!

our 6th Months

2008-07-02T10:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a lot of FUN!!!
FUN!! FUN!! FUN!!
with Dawood....
its our 6th months anniversary...
met him at town !
jus to jalan-jalan...
ate at FISH & CO.
till we r full...hahaha!!
lepak at Dhoby Ghaut MRT behind...
took 851 back home!
in the bus he is so sweet!
i swear...
never seen that part of him!
hehehe!!!
den when to Downtown East!
thought wanna watch MOVIE!
bt dnt have!
we are MOVIE FREAKS!!!
hahahaha!!!!
den we head home!

I LOVE U , DAWOOD!!
and thanks for last night!
it was wonderful & magical!

i am sad now coz Dawood had to go Thailand
its a last minute thingy!
haiz...but luckily for a day only!!
take care hunny bunny!

Yeah ME!

2008-06-26T11:45:00.002+08:00

Dawood coming home today!!!!
YEAH!!!
but to bad,I cant meet him or fetch him
he is coming home with his fren, RESH!
haiz....i so long wanna see him & hug him!
B, i love u
and hope u reach home safely!
I miss u!
i Really wish u wud read my blog!
i seriously wish tat!
but i know u wont!
haiz...
but nevermind den...
I love u , Dawood!!
i really do!

missing Dawood Badly

2008-06-25T10:33:00.002+08:00

Hey yall
hmm..
im missing Dawood rite now!
got he is my other half..
n i cant live w/o him!

btw yesterday(24-06)
i went to Myra's place to swim!
yeah us
hehehe!!
it was fun coz it's been along time since i met her!
the mum cooked us dinner..
thanks Aunty!!

tomorrow nite(26-06)
Dawood will be back in Singapore!
yeah!!
i cant wait sey...
haiz...
i wanna hug him and all...

I love u , Hunny Bunny!!

the day Dawood went to Thailand

2008-06-24T12:47:00.003+08:00

yup!
today Dawood went to Thailand
So boring!!!
and worse..
i cant see him before he went!
FUCK AHH!!
we fought!
so wad's new,huh?!
he be back on thursday's night
haiz..
for now
its BOREDOM for me!
well, hope he have fun and come back safely as well!
take care!

and to make things any worse!
today is like our...
1 YEAR knowing each other..
and he didnt even care much!

jus random pictures

2008-06-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

my new bikini !!!!

The way that i love u...

2008-06-18T12:58:00.000+08:00

Everything you did and everything you said,
now I'm standin' here lookin' like damn
I thought it was you and I,

now all I gotta say is why

The way that I love You....

Happy Belated Father's Day

2008-06-17T12:35:00.002+08:00

To a Father who has been with me through my ups and my downs...
MR Isnin Bin Kasim.

I cant say you are the Greatest Father
I cant say you are the Best Father
coz i will be lying then...
But no matter what happens,
I will never trade you for
The Greatest or The Best!
you are the father..
that taught me
to smile,
to trust,
to live my life,
to take care of myself,
to wear a sock!,
to be honest,
to not be gullible...
you are the father!!
that is why i love u with all my heart!
eventhough we shout and cant get along most of the times!
I still love u!

Thanks Dad...
for being there for me all this while!

dedicated to Dawood

2008-06-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

To the Most Irritating Guy...
Mohamed Dawood Anuar...

As days goes by,
my love grew like wild fire...
As time past,
I learn lots of things about u...
No amount of cash can buy my love
No number of gossips can pull us down!

Like u say to me,
We maybe broke but never broken!

To the best boyfriend I ever have..
I love You...

my day!

2008-06-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hey yall..
I jus got back from
E-HUB!
me and Dawood(my other half)
went to catch "THE HAPPENING"
its a freaking scary suspense show sey!
if u have heart failure,
dont watch it!
u can DIE!!
hahahaha!!!
before that me went to
a engagement party!
at yishun...
my father's side..
after that took bus 853 to seranggon MRT station
and off to Boon Keng to watch
Dawood live in action!
heheh!actually his match against Sporting West League!!
Mepek nye team!
we WON!!
8-0!
cool or wad...
seriously!
meet kelly and nora over there!
their bf's oso play for Elias Park!
hahha!

To : Dawood Anuar
Hey b,
u will always be my baby...
and i LOVE u alot!
please dnt do nasty stuffs to me...
u r my everything
and life without u seems incomplete!
btw thanks alot for trying to get me the Stitch doll!
hehe!!

I LOVE U , DAWOOD <3

more, more pictures!

2008-06-14T01:38:00.001+08:00

Camwhoring!

The CRAZY sisters

Hint** i want this bag!

my Kental face

more pictures Cuz!!!

2008-06-14T01:30:00.002+08:00

me & ul

Me ,ul & Fareaha

How do i look??hmm...

lawa la tu muke?!?

c wad happens wen we r together!!!

2008-06-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

Cousins' outing

2008-06-14T00:20:00.003+08:00

I had a blast today with Ul and Fareaha...
well, they are my family..
btw we went like Suntec, Marina Square and walked our way to Bugis!
hehehe!!
it was Super Duper Fun!!
anyway, its been like 2 days i slept over at Dawood house.
hehe!
Im so in love with him sey.
I dunno wad to say and no one can take that away from me.
Today i bought like a belt from cotton on and Ul bought a bracelet and purse.
hehehe!!
u know, i know..public dunno..huh!
hehehe!!btw
i miss dawood!!
i hope i can really spend more time with him..
coz he is going thailand soon...
haiz....
my workaholic boyfriend...

Btw people,im gonna upload the pictures we took today ok?
so stay tune!!

spending time wid dawood

2008-06-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

Now im at
THE PITCH
watching youtube...
as per usual Dawood watch his lame stuffs
but now he is changing coz he gona play
SOCCER!!
hahaha!!
well, im working from home for this week
till further notice.
My work place power failure!
OMG!
i know...
haiz...
btw rite now im super full..
ate like a whole murtabak ayam..
dawood jus had like a few pieces only.
im BORED!!
someone save me!
hehehe!
lame mira...
hahaha!!

that's for now..
till then..adios!

the night

2008-06-10T09:54:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY...
was the BEST day of my life...
i met Dawood at 5pm at Town
and straight he ask me whether there is a
CHARLES & KEITH!!!!!
wow!!!
n u GUESS it rite...
i got my SHOES!!!!
yeah me!!!
i so in love wid him!!!
i really do even if he didnt buy me the shoes!
hehehe!!!
THANK YOU ,DAWOOD!!!!
after that we jalan2
and had a blast!
spending time with Dawood is
very memorable and fun!!!
i cant stop laughing the whole time
Dawood doing his usual crazy dance n lame jokes!!

The night was fun
but!
Dawood feel sick!
i pity him...
but well,
he been working really hard!!
i love u!
and get well soon!

jus updating

2008-06-08T18:16:00.002+08:00

firstly, here's a shout out to Muhammad Farouq Farkhan !!!
Happy 20th birthday,dude!!!
hehehe!!!
may u have a blissful life ahead of u!

btw today i am at home the whole day....
im trying to use my aunty lappy to do my work stuff which has 2 be email by 2nite and yup, i havent done a single thing!!!
FUCK!!!
worse...im feeling fuck-up..
i dunno wad i do wrong or anything..
and i get fuck by the person i love most n cared for...
haiz...
life is never fair wad rite!?!
but well, dawood you should not put the blame on me coz i didnt do anything!
i told u everything!
but well,i guess our love is jus fading now...
we are constantly fighting and not in good terms..
im not surprise if this doesnt last long even if i wanted it to be...
haiz...
life is full of surprises...

till here den..
all the best people!

dear diary

2008-05-29T14:23:00.002+08:00

Dear fellow blog readers,

right now i have a feeling to be lame and dumb!hahaha!im at a gaming centre wid my beloved Dawood..he is at another computer playing Call of duty 4! wad a game!its really a shooting-shooting game!hehe!but well, tis is the time we spend time together..waste money on stupid stuff like tis!hehehe!! btw he is at another computer which is far from mine..n its boring wen he is not beside me!btw im not at work today...feeling kinda of dowsy!wee~but hope to feel better..but most importantly,im feeling better den yesterday!yesterday suck big time sey...hahaha!!to be specific,me and dawood is at paya lebar at a building beside city plaza...i dunno wad building izzit called la..but we r there!our first time!!hehehe!!so i catch u blog readers later!!
love ya...

Amirah

ok yesterday! & today

2008-05-28T12:48:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!
yesterday wen to meet my Dawood at
THE PITCH!!!
his coach, his coach fren n resh was there!
and his coach fren is like
SUPER DUPER HOT!!!
i give him a 10!
yoohhoo!!!
hahahaha!!
i know im being lame now!
but he is super gorgeous
and
his body is to die for..
i was like melting rite infront of Dawood!
but he knows...
u can look but u cant touch!
hehehe!
i believe in that policy!
wee!

Actually i jus got back from work...
i was sick!
and Frank,my boss..
send me home!!
hahaha!ok..but im resting now!
update again soon!

Love u dawood!

2008-05-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

today(26/05/2008) was my first day of work at conference Bay. It was fun coz i meet a new fren,Shelby!hehehe!!well, we had lunch at a japanese small restaurant at liang court!wow!i know..hehhee!!but everywhere over there is expensive!!!! my money burn so easily...sob!sob!hehe!!btw i worked like for 8hrs and i learn how to stare at the computer..hahaha!!seriously,i aint joking!but i did learn stuff as well..ehehe!! Fran,the co-founder was super cool and funny comparing to arnout,the founder!but overall,its a nice small cosy company wid very very big dream!

had a fight wid dawood,as per usual...he is drunk!wad a surprise??hahaa!lame!i know..but today he is like hot-tempered wid me..i dunno y..probably he found someone else better then me?i dunno!im prepared for the worse actually!but i dnt want us to end!n dawood is like so not romantic this days!where is tat Dawood i fell in love wid...haiz!in every relationship, i always hav tis feelings tat once a guy gets the gerl,he jus fucked off and dnt bother bout her feelings!wad can i say..guys are like tat! they are born into this world to hurt girls' feelings!!!!im sad now!coz i dnt get to share my first day of work wid him!

i need a soldier

2008-05-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

If your status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he lookin' at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things
If you know what I mean
If your status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he looking at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Gotta know to get dough

And he betta be street

finally a job!

2008-05-23T19:22:00.002+08:00

I have a...
JOB!!!!!
yeah me...
hehehe!!

im gonna start work tis coming monday
and i'll be working from 9-6!
monday - friday
at 15 Mohamed Sultan
Conference Bay

YAHOO!!!!

2008-05-23T11:17:00.001+08:00

im only 20 years old...
i need to live my life...
i need to enjoy my life..
i need to have happiness in my life...
smile and twinkle in my eyes!
oh god!
i shud be happy..
i wanna be happy..
but its hard...
coz finding for work sucks big time!!!!
oh god!!
please do help me!!!
i need it alot!

pieces of me...

2008-05-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

i dont know about the others living on earth...
but for me..
im used to hiding my real feelings deep, deep in my heart!
i learn to do that wen i was 15years old..
life is cruel...
life is unfair..
people who had gone thru hardship,knows wad i meant!
btw i hide my feelings and plastered a smile on my face!
tt im good at...another thing im good at is...
hurting loved ones...
hope i do change for the better!
love urself before u love the others...

im not confused anymore...

2008-05-18T19:23:00.002+08:00

to all the people who read my blog!!!
im no longer confused, stress and frustrated...
i finally sort out my life!!!
yes,my life is still abit complicated but its way better then last week!
hehehe!!
yup!!believe it!

i know and confirm that i only love my soulmate,
which is Dawood!!!
and i actually miss him alot...
and love him to pieces...

and now im more serious in getting a job!
and help my parents
and also save up!!!
coz october is THAILAND TRIP!!!!!
yeah!!!
hahaha!!!

so god bless me and hope everything will be alright!!!
love u ,Dawood!

a day out with my family!

2008-05-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

well, i jus got back from an outing wid my family...
me,my sis,my bro,my mum & my dad!!
all 5 of us!!
jus like old time!!

firstly,our destination is to Arab Street...
to actually "window shop" for kain untuk hari raya!!
but in the end...
my dad!! yes, my dad!!
spend like over $700
on kain for the Ladies...
hehehe!!
we bought 2 types of kain...
it means this year we have 2 baju kurung!!
yeah!!!
it was really fun and enjoyable!!
lots of laughter and noise!!
hahaha!!

next was Tampines Mall...
we actually went there coz my dad promise us something..
so me and my 2 younger siblings decided to go..
Levis Signature!!
yeah!
n Guess wad,people??!!
each of us received 2 pairs of denim jeans...
im like so happy!!
i mean we are so happy!!hahaha!!
Thanks Bapak!!!

Lastly, we head home...
sob..sob..
haha!!
but we stop over at white sand shopping centre..
wen to Bata!
coz i wanna get shoes..that i've been eyeing for decades...
hahahaha!!!
and finally,i got the shoes!!
yeah...
n i oso blanje fareaha a slip-ons!!!

overall,today was a great day and i enjoy myself wid my family!

ive realise...

2008-05-18T11:54:00.002+08:00

hey world..
when i did my soul searching..
ive found out something!
ive jus realised that i truly love one person...
only one person in my life!
and he been there for me..
hug me..
share stuffs wid me..
kiss me..
hold me..
love me..
he is DAWOOD ANUAR !!!

yesterday was the best day of my life!
we had everything!
and i dont need anything else...
jus him in my life!
i love u Dawood !!

2008-05-16T15:21:00.001+08:00

if u love someone,u have to let the person go!
their happiness is more important...
and wad i learn is jus nod and obey...
life is like tat!
someone whom i loved alot say something before he went...
u gain something and lose something as well...
life is unfair!

2008-05-16T14:56:00.002+08:00

do i believe in soul mates???
i guess not!
well, if u cant take me anymore,dont force urself!
wad the use if u force?
hmm...
u say soul mates??
i say NOT!
well, i hope ur work gives u the happiness, pleasure & love u always need!
take care!

2008-05-14T13:01:00.003+08:00

we have our nicknames that we called each other...
kering?
baby?
and we have that feelings..
always lingered in our hearts!
we know we are meant to be..
but we have time for all that...
i never come across someone who is..
patient..
kind..
lovely..
understanding..
fun..
crazy..
daring..
its been really fun!
and i want it to continue till the end of time!
please don't run away again..
just be there!

to u...

2008-05-14T12:05:00.002+08:00

this song is for a special someone...
Muhammad Farouq Farkhan...
always been there for me and
make me a special person in his life!
i thank u for all that!

"Jaded (These Years)"

There's a time and place, for everything.
There's a reason why, certain people meet.
There's a destination, for everyone.
What's the explanation, when we're done?

All the summer nights spent wondering;
So many questions asked, but no one's answering.
Would it be okay if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong?

I'm jaded, stupid, and reckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and reckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.

Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Its times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.

I'm jaded, stupid, and reckless.
Not sorry, we'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and reckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

We'll never forget the places we've been, you and i.
Our lives are slipping away.
Don't want to let time pass us by, byyyyyyy...

I'm jaded, stupid, and reckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years....
...spent, so faded and reckless,
Not sorry, and I'll never regret...
I'm jaded, stupid, and reckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

living life like this

2008-05-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

hey world!
living life like this
is so MISERABLE...
im stuck between 2 worlds...
i need to make my life proper!
life is
Blurr!!
i wanna cry!
but who's der to wipe the tears away?
who's der to gimme a hug?
n say "everything gonna be alrite!" ?
i know!
im being emotional,
but what can i do?
run away?
hide?
im confused!
really, really, really
CONFUSED!

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY

2008-05-12T11:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

to my ONE & ONLY MUMMY....

Mdm Juriah Osman....

a wonderful mum,

a mum who endured my life for 20 years!

a mum who is patient

a mum who will be there for her kids

a mum who teaches her kids good moral

a mum who gives moral support

a mum who enjoys being around her kids

a mum who is willing to do anthing for her kids

a mum who is mighty fine

a mum who listen

a mum who advices instead of raising her voice

a mum whom i really love

and wouldnt exchange her for anything in this world!

coz she the only one i got!!

I LOVE U,MUMMY!!!

and thank u for everything!

the joy of meeting dawood

2008-05-12T11:30:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey!!!

im gonna meet Dawood again today

and this time it be LONGER!!

wee~~

seriously i do miss him alot...

he's my baby!

im gonna meet him at town

coz he ends work arnd 5pm

and his last session is in town!!!

ookkk...

heehe!!

meeting someone i love really very much,

makes me happy like a 5 year old girl who jus receive a big candy!!

hhaha!!

tat me now...

having the BIGGEST smile plastered to my face!!

meeting my Dawood

2008-05-11T09:34:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD!OH MY GOD!OH MY GOD!!

i cant believe it now..i am getting ready to meet

the ONE & ONLY

Mr. Dawood Anuar!!

yeah!!!

its been like god knows when

WEDNESDAY!!!!!

i am actually getting ready to meet my boyfriend!

at serangoon MRT!

@11.15am...

i know it still early but

i am so EXCITED!!!

but we jus gonna spend some time together..

then he had to go back to work!

OH GOSH!!!!!

still i am excited!

ok..learn...

2008-05-09T20:01:00.002+08:00

i admit i mss Dawood alot.Ive not seen him since like wednesday and Im going crazy!I miss his hugs, kisses, smell, jokes and even laughter.I am the kinda of gerl who isnt patient and coz of that me and Dawood nearly broke up today!He is my other half and i cant live without him by my side! I need him and I know he is not the perfect guy who can gimme everything but wad he is doing for me is more then enough for me!Who needs perfection rite?well, I hope i can meet him tomorrow and hug him.I miss him...2 days straight,I cried my hearts content coz I miss him and Im hoping now its a new beginning for us again.Im sorry for my mistakes but I need you to know that i still need you here with me.

from Mohammad Farouq Farkhan to Siti 'Amirah

2008-05-08T22:49:00.001+08:00

I'm the guy who will text you

every single morning and tell you good

morning, and every single night to tell

you sweet dreams.

I'm the guy who will hold you when

you're crying and wipe away your tears.

I'm the guy who still thinks you'rebeautiful with no make-up on,

wearingyour most torn up jeans and a plaintee-shirt.

I'm the guy who won'tpressure you to

do things that you don't want to do.

I'm the guy who kisses you on the

forehead; it doesn't always have to beon the mouth.

I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell.

I'm the guy who actually listens to you

when you talk.

I'm the guy who's waited ALL day

because I'm looking forward to our date'THAT' night.

I'm the guy who is content to just beable to hold you and wants nothing

more.

I'm the guy who can't help but smile

when you walk into the room.

I'm the guy who's perfectly content

with staying in and watching movies and

cuddling.

I'm the guy who won't lie to you about

where im going or where ive been, or

who ive been with.

I'm the guy who gets butterflies when

i hears your name.

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell

my friends i love you.

I'm the guy who doesn't mess with other

girls when I have you;

you're the only

one that I need.

I'm the guy who doesn't care about your

imperfections, and loves you more forthem;

who wants a perfect girl?

that'sjust boring.

I'm the guy who will hold you while we

watch the sunset.

I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE

YOUTHE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

I AM THIS GUY.. one of many.. who

always ends up losing 'her' to the jerks who

will treat 'her' like crap and are so

concerned about getting some.

B,please read!

2008-05-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

guys,
do u realize that the girl who is holding onto u now is perfect in her own special way?
the way she laughs.
the way she sleeps.
the way she sulks.
the way she smiles.
the way she cries.
the way she thinks of you.
the way she tries to please you.
the way she sacrifices for you.
the way she wants to understand you.
the way she's lovin you with all her heart.
always remember that.
she can always get up and walk away.
getting someone else who can love her more.
there might be someone out there who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.
fulfill her every needs and loves her as much as she loves you.
or maybe loves her more than she loves you.
but definitely loving her more than u do.
for all you know,there already might be someone out there wooing her.
be it from a distance or as a gentleman.
but she is rejecting coz she believes in perfect love.
for whom she will share her joys and tears together.
for whom she will promise to be faithful.
for whom she will commit herself into.
to her,you're her perfect love!
understand that.
guys,
you might be thinking that the love is fading.
you can't find the freshness between the two of you.
everything is stale to you now.
everywhere seems the same to you.
you said "been there done that".
so u went & look for another girl.
imagine this.
behind her back you're hugging and kissing another girl.
when you see her today u do the same.
but you still see love in her eyes.
while others are just some flings.
do you feel the hurt?
can you feel the guilt?
for you must know.
every new thing brings an excitement.
only to find the boredoom and sick of it after we're being so used together.
she might not be feeling the hurt now coz she won't know.
she might be feeling something's not right coz she can sense.
but she's still holding on to you.
not coz she's stupid.
not coz she's dumb.
not coz she's a fool.
but coz she believes u will not break her full-hearted heart.
she believes u will not let her tears flow.
she believes u will keep your promises.
she believes this is love.
she loves you not because you are pleasant looking.
sweet talker.
or that you have 5cs.
she loves you for who you are.
your every touch.
every word you say.
everything you do.
she was born here inperfect.
everyone is.
only what she wants from u is almost perfect.
and she knows she can't do it alone.
it needs two hands to clap.
guys,
for her,
being the upmost girlfriend is to endure your every moves.
your every mood swing.
your every word.
and actions.
even dealing with the most unbearable pain
she will bear it for your sake.
but once she knows that the time is up.
she will leave you.
with the most unforgettable painful memories u both had.
from the sweetest to the very last moment she had to leave.
coz of ur doings.
guys,
cherish and appreciate your girl.
don't break her fragile heart.
she is the only one who can love you this way.
you won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
for everything she has done for you.
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.
coz u should know.
her love and sacrifice doesn't mean forever.
when she finally realised.
you're not worth her love.
she will leave u for the one who well deserves her love.
guys,
dun ever leave the one u love,
for the one u like..coz one day..
the one u like will leave u,
for the one they love...

aarrggghhhh!!!

2008-05-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

i feel fucked!i do..and to make it worse, my boyfriend cant even lend a listening ear to me.god!at this very minute,im officially hating my life and that i hope i can die and not live this fucking life.I need cash to pay my grandma back and also i hav to pay some bills and fines.But how am i suppose to do all that if i only have $230 in my account??god,please help me!gimme some sign that you are helping me!

the life i lead

2008-05-07T10:36:00.002+08:00

god,serioulsy i have to stop depending on people.I have to stop depending on my boyfriend, my grandmama, my parents, my aunt.I am 20 years old and i should have a freaking savings now.god,i need a job first and den i will tackle the money issues.I hate being an adult it sucked big time but as we all know we are all suppose to grow up and face the reality.How i wish i am Peterpan now.i dont have to worry bout work, life, money, bills, marriage, saving and lots lots more!!
My relationship with my boyfriend now is ok.We do communicate but mostly by sms as he is too freaking busy looking for money.I miss having fun with him.i miss the late night snacks, the crazy psp games, the movie marathon, the laughter and lots more.i need him more now.I know is trying very hard to save enough money so that he can support both me and him but i still do need him by my side.
My family is all ok except for my grandmama.She is sick for a while now.I pity her that now she i snot that strong and hav to use a wheelchair to move around.She used to be a strong lady that i admire so much.My dad now is constantly nagging at me.I know i didnt grow up like how you plan it but nobody does!i know i disappoint you and mummy alot and never was a role model for my younger siblings but you must understand my situation as well.I need my space and my life.I dont want you to control my life and have push me to my limits.I know how i wanna live my life and its sumthing so far from yours.I jus hope you give me your support and bessing!that all i ask for.And dont worry,i did apply for a few jobs.I hope i get them.
To fareaha and Ihsan,please study hard and dont bugged your parents likehow i used to bug them.i think they had enuf of that now.And also do have have and know how you wana live your life.enjoy your teenagehood!Love you guys!
Please god,i hpe i get a job by the end of the week.I am so desperate now.

get me hunny??

2008-05-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

I wana have a

body sweating,

eyes twinkling

trampoline jumping,

spoon licking,

fingers join,

legs rubbing,

saliva exchanging,

hair tossing

mind blowing

meeting wid u...

Only YOU!!!

hey!

2008-04-23T17:01:00.003+08:00

hey..hey..hey!!!
2 days ago was dawood's birthday...
i know i cant spend much or do anything interesting but i hope u like it!!
well,i really enjoyed my time wid him tat day...
i was SPECIAL...

btw wad wrong wid people nowadays dat they LOVES to backstab!!!
i hate u people!!!!
really...find ur own life!!!

arrggghhhh!!!!

btw 2day i got back frm ntuc at whitesand wid my dad...
bought like lots of stuff!!!
loving it...
haahaha!!!

updates

2008-04-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

hey der people..

hehehe!!

sorry for the late updates!!

jus to LAZY!!!

firstly, i wanna giv a shoutout to my beloved boyfriend,Dawood...i love him alot!!hehehe!

secondly, im praying tat my grandma will be ok and eat her meals...

thirdly, im happy tat i get a job!!

forth, there's this jerk who called me at night yesterday and disturbed my beauty sleep!!!

fifth, cant wait for my bf birthday..(21april)

sixth, jus in LOVE...

wee~

love u guys!

toodles!

Birthday Updates!!

2008-03-25T10:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my

20th BIRTHDAY!!!!!

yahoo!!~

hehehe!

n GUESS WAD?!?

my dawood surprise me with a BBQ bday party...

isnt he so sweet!?

i cant believe he go thru all that trouble!

thank u so much syg!

yesterday night was fun, enjoyable, crazy & full of laughter!!!!

hahahaha!!!

took lots of pictures!!

will update tat soon!

hehehe!

thank u to all my cousins who attend it...

yum,ana,ul & fa!!

hehe!

n to Khai & Haidar as well...

love u guys!!!

to Dawood, the love of my life!

thank u alot...

it was a gd surprise...

i seriously tot we r going to a new hawker centre at the beach!!

hehehe!!

mayb one day we go to the bar!!!

love u hunny bunny!!!

a day more

2008-03-23T09:58:00.000+08:00

1 more day to.....

MY 20th BIRTHDAY!!!!!

seriously!!!

2008-03-23T09:50:00.002+08:00

hey guys...

sorry i didnt update lots of stuff!

i've been sleeping at Dawood's hse!

it wad fun!!

late night snack!

mid-night games!

hahaha!!

it was SUPER DUPER FUN!!

i'm so in love with Dawood...

yesterday was Dawood match with Summerville~

i hate tat club...

play DIRTY!!

but atlast its a draw(1-1)

ok la...

got a mini fight (johnny , dawood & the opponent)

hehehe!!

funny tau!

after tat Aunty Carol invite all of us to her house..

DINNER!!!

yupz...

yummy yum yum!!

ate like chicken curry & beef rendang...

sedap!!

hehehe!!

hang out for a while den Dawood send me home!!

wee~

i love u!!

never had enuf of him

2008-03-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

best night of my life...
meet dawood arnd 7.45pm jus now at macdonald white sand!
hang wid this soccermates for awhile and we went to hav dinner at KFC!!
wee~
yummy!!!

hehhee!!
den me & dawood chill at pond's hawker centre...
it was one of my best night with dawood!!

love dawood lots!!
muahzz...

my ex-boyfriends

2008-03-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

Ahmad Fadhuli - 1st ever boyfriend
nice guy
tall
smart
too VAIN, da macam pompuan

Muhd Faizul - 2nd boyfriend
soccer player
now married and gonna have a child this june
chubby
typical mat
hardworking

Muhd Farouq Farkhan - 3rd boyfriend
skinny
tall
soccer player
got no "balls"
a dumb guy to a extend
nice guy

love it!~

2008-03-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

today the best day!

wee~

i think my best day of my life...

in the afternoon wen to Bedok

uwa ask to buy DURIAN!!!

hehehe!!

sweet little lady

in the evening

i meet DAWOOD!!!

wee~

i realised now that...

i love dawood like no other..

before i meet him,

i have to kiss a few

UGLY, SMELLY frogs!!!

hahhaa!

its true!

now i found him,

life is a blessing!

oo yeah..

2008-03-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

OOPSS!!

i almost forget to tell all of u this...

i wen for an interview..

with GUESS by marciano..

wee~

hope i get the job!

what a day...

2008-03-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

Guess wad happen today...
OMG!!!
well, i wen to take my BTT at SSDC...
but i FAIL!!!!
arrrgggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehehh!!!
ok la..i wnt give up...

den this is the happening part la..
i fought with farouq..
den the fren's sister masok campor...
BUSYBODY, siol...
stupid person..
dnt know how to mind her own FUCKING business..
but wel,i dnt care la..
she is a LOW LIFE...
nt worth my time, breath and energy....
bebual macam faham!
this is the typical malay family...
no offence to sum of u!
shout under the block...
sms me, threatening me...
asking me to respect her..
but WHO THE HELL IS SHE??
she is a NOBODY....
wan me to respect u rite??
earn it la...
hahahahaha!!! FAT CUNT!!!!

well, overall my day is fine..
at nite meet ul..
she went shopping...
den i meet my lovely boyfriend....
had dinner with him!!!
as per usual..he BLANJE me...
hehehhe!!!
i love him to bits...
never love someone like how i love him...
he is the GREATEST BOYFRIEND i ever have n will have...

thanks!

2008-03-15T23:37:00.003+08:00

Please dont worry bout me, I'M FINE!!

only gonna be the fool one time....

trust me when i say...

THAT I WILL BE OK...

go on boy....

more pictures of me & sis...

2008-03-15T12:16:00.001+08:00

seoul garden with sis

2008-03-15T12:12:00.001+08:00

yesterday me & sis went to

Seoul Garden at Tampines Mall...

wee~

a day out ith my younger sister(Fareaha)...

we ate like we never eat before

and look at out tummies!!

hehehe!!

more pictures of M.M.F.

2008-03-14T20:10:00.001+08:00

me at roof top!
he is always on the fone!
wee~
a DRUNK ninja
isnt it cool ?!!

Mosaic Music Festival

2008-03-14T20:06:00.001+08:00

we are going to Mosiac Music Festival (raggea)
before me & dawood enter the theatre studio!
my HERO!!

when 2 drunkards get together...hahaha!!!

love u dawood..

had lots of fun!!!

me & dawood

2008-03-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys...
i jus got back from meeting dawood.we are better and i hope we stay like this forever!i hate fighting with him...create stress and also makes me sad...i really love him and has never feel bored with him...

im sorry,b! i love u!

pictures

2008-03-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

Barbie Doll

2008-03-09T23:46:00.004+08:00

Guess wad happen la after my family outing??? i wen to meet Dawood because he said he wanted to meet me but well, i put high hopes la...i alight the MRT at Bedok and walk to the inspirasi stall at bedok interchange hawker centre.Once i reached there my "Oh so Good" boyfriend says he cant hang out wid me long coz he got to meet his ex-classmates!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!! he knows im nt fine wen he says tat but he still go...am i a doll to u ??well, if u take me as a doll..let me jus inform u tat THIS doll has feelings!!!! this shows how much he is willing to do for his friends....

to Dawood...

THANKS ALOT!!! now i know how much i mean to u...

from Amirah...

family outing

2008-03-09T23:40:00.003+08:00

it was the best day of my life...
me & my whole haji osman's family wen to town...
upon reaching we went to Robinson first cos??
tante lin wanna buy bras...
n total cost of 2 bras = $170++
GOD!!!!
waste money..
saper nak gi tengok ??
hahaha!!
den we head to Paragon!!!
wee~~
enjoy..
we ate at fish & co.
order like so many food!
my stomach wanna burst!!
13 people eating = $350 worth of food!!!
WTF !!!
hahaha!!
it was a blast...
cant wait for the next outing!!

Dawood..where r u?

2008-03-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

god!! i miss dawood so much sey...

i really need to be with him now..

i even lost his geylang windbreaker sey..

im DEAD!!!

but i miss him badly...

come back home now!!!

i need u...

I love u, Dawood

picnic with my family & ul's family

2008-03-03T21:56:00.001+08:00

sorry tat i took so long to uploads this pictures

but it was taken like last month!!

hehehe!!

its a blast!

CNY pictures...

2008-03-03T21:52:00.001+08:00

me, ul , don & thames
me & don
eating steam boat! yummy~
me & the guys
me & the girls

missing u,dawood!

2008-03-03T09:55:00.002+08:00

well, yesterday i spend the afternoon with my Dawood coz in the evening...

he had to go Thailand AGAIN for coaching....

NOW!!!

im missing him like crazy...

on the

1st of March is our...

2nd month anniversary!

yeahh!!!

meet him after his coaching at elias park FC..

head to tampines mall...

i was from IKEA

with family..

it was a fun outing!hehehe!

watch movie with him

movie start at 11.30pm~

it was cool to be with me..

before that we went to eat at...

PIZZA HUT

bf blanje!!hehe!

i always enjoyed my time wid him...

never gonna leave!

guess wad??!!

bf jus masok msn...

he tells me he misses me 2!hehehe!

cant wait 4 him to be back home 2morrow..

i hope i can fetch him!

love u<3

my super hero!

alter ego...

im hating it now~

2008-02-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

i hate relationship!!!
i hate it!!!
BIG TIME!!!!

having a boyfriend is like having none!!!
dnt care bout anything....
i hate to regret ahh!!!!
but well, my life is full of regret...
having another one is nuthing....

FUCK AHH!!!

Yesterday !

2008-02-27T10:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i cook mee maggi goreng and chicken patties for my boyfriend..hehhe! we had our breakfast over at his home. after that we watch P.S. I Love You !! thank u boyfriend!! i love u lots for watching that show with me...and i had lots of fun wid u yesterday...im HONEST!!

and i still cant believe that u found like wad? handphone, mp3 palyer & cash??hmm..that a blessing in disguise..hahaha!im lame.i know!

well, that's all folks!
getting ready to meet Dawood for lunch at whitesand!
wee~~
love u DAWOOD!!

dawood anuar

2008-02-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

to : Dawood Anuar

Dawood, for the past few days...we had been arguing like nobody's business! i hate to tell u this but i do actually hate arguing with u, especially wen u get sarcastic and cruel wid ur words! i cried knowing all this happen coz of me! B,i hate arguing with u and i wan us to actually slove our problem rationally like adults! we are getting old!hehehe!!!

b,u know i always love u with all my heart and that everyday i miss u...No words can describe how much i love u and i miss u...

so B, wen are we going sofra??? and wen are we watching P.S. I love u?? I really wanna watch that show...u know i really, really, badly DO wanna watch it...hehehe!!!

B, soon we gonna b together for 2 months!! WOW !!!! that is so fast...but i've known u for like going 8months.....tat fast...and there's still more to learn about u and discover new things about u!! hahahhaa!!!!

Most of all..--------> I LOVE U !!!!

i grab these from ul!!

2008-02-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

pictures of me!

2008-02-24T10:52:00.001+08:00

enjoy!!!

hehehe!!

my uncle wedding

2008-02-24T10:48:00.001+08:00

yesterday my whole family wen

to my uncle weeding at sengkang!!!

wee~

we has so much fun !

and his bride is pretty!!

lucky him!!!

heheh!!

Downtown east

2008-02-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

hey people, friends, family members!!!

i jus came back from having supper wid my beloved Dawood at downtown east..i had hokkien noodle and he had crispy chicken fried rice and char kui tio...ice peach tea and ice cream soda~ we talked and talked and talked as if we had not seen each other for 10 years..padahal i jus meet him in the morning! hehehe!! i love him to bits!and losing him is like losing my arm and legs!GOD !~hehehe!! i wan Us to last...till the last breath...

my birthday is around the corner and i cat wait...so loved ones, please start buying me gifts...hehehe!!i wan lots of stuff...and buy sumthing i like...

I LOVE DAWOOD!

to SITI FATHANAH....

2008-02-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

hey siti fathanah....
btw if u feel embaressed about my past rite..y the hell u were wid me all along ???and yup, dawood knows about my past! i told him straight and everything!!! n in ur live journal u say u dnt wanna come my house rite??y still come??coz of uwa izzit??well, u can meet her outside..dnt come in!!!!and btw me and ul wanna help u...not condemned u! WTH!!! i didnt say im so good and everything! i didnt say all that ok!

jus to let u know...i really look up to u...since the day i know wad the meaning of role model..wen i got my PSLE result..i cried because i got Normal Academic and u got to go Express...dn wen O'level result,u got like wad??18 points and i got 22 points,i cried...i always say to myself..if u can do it,i can do it 2!

people are trying to help u..u dnt feel sad that ur mum cry and even ur dad say "he lost a daughter?" i cried for u...and wen u didnt come home for like 4 days...i keep asking ul every night whether u r back and uwa cried as well...asking bout u!!!

i dnt care who u wanna date...but u must realised that u are 22 years old! u are getting older by the year and that u must b matured! ur younger siblings look up to u!and who told u im getting engaged next year???i,myself dnt know im getting engaged! im shocked to read wad u wrote in ur blog!

well,if u still wanna fight and all....i cant force u...but im jus trying to help u like how u help me wen im in trouble!i dnt wanna see u stray and all...people still loves u...and if u think im condemning u,U ARE WRONG!!!!if u think me and ul is a pain in the ass and also smells rite??well, we all come from the same family and worst..u and ul comes from the same mum! if she smells..u do 2...

family sticks together....thru thick and thin!

Changi Airport Terminal 3

2008-02-20T11:28:00.002+08:00

wee~ yesterday(19-2-08), me and dawood when terminal 3 rite after his training wid is arnd 9plus!! we ate at the food court! and gosh!! its HUGE!!!! we had so much fun there...we went here and there...go up and down!hehehehe!!! mcm tourists!!we had so much fun !!!

that's ME!!!

2008-02-19T12:14:00.001+08:00

I party like a rockstar,

Look like a movie star,

Play like an all star,

Fuck like a pornstar,

Baby I'm a superstar,

Always posted at the bar

Always with couple boss

that so romantic

2008-02-19T11:54:00.003+08:00

hey guys..
i jus read yesterday newpaper...n i read an article about beckham and victoria...after like wad?3 kids...they still love each other and even renew their vows and have matching tattoos...OMG!! that is so romantic..how i wish me and my bf can do stuff like that....i really renvy beckham and victoria! they are super cool & romantic....

Tattoo by Jordin Sparks

2008-02-19T11:49:00.001+08:00

"Tattoo"

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

That truth is a stranger

Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on

And leave you behind

[Chorus]

I can't waste time so give it a moment

I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back at a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have youI'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong

And then change my mind

Sorry but I gotta be strong

And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have youI'll always have you)

[Bridge]

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything i do

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattooI'll always have you

this song is dedicated to Mohamed Dawood....

i hope u do read my blog!